I got my L's again yesterday but have since realised that all my friends who drive do not have insurance for people under 30.
I could pay for the special insurance for Kath's car but its an auto and i want more then a license to steer.
So crapper to that.

sad

my computer is being fixed. it was broken really bad. it's going to cost $300 to get fixed.

concerned about the wellbeing of my computer? contact me to donate.

*if i was a christian organisation i could do that and somehow justify it. Kaia and Mark just sent out a newsletter with an attatched financial support form. hmm..

THE SKANKY AWARD OF THE YEAR GOES TO.......

ami!!!!! oh what a suprise! I wasn't sure at first who the lucky contestant would be but after going into the shed and finding that her dog has been shitting in the shed it wasn't hard to decide.
another example of skankyness is this picture taken today. a birdseye view of the skankyness below....

*it has been covered by more junk but in previous weeks you could actually see one of the rotting rat carcass' murdered by her three cats.

it doesn't make sense

i can't get my head around Fusion sending a bunch of people to Athens. it's costing so much money. wouldn't it be better to spend that money on recruting more Fusionites in Australia? or spending it on better spaces for the 'young people' to hang out after school in a safe environment? if i was donating money to Fusion i'd be pretty pissed off if it went towards giving someone a free trip to Athens....
i know that most people on the blogfeed probably support Fusions work - and that's cool, i used to as well... but with an outside perspective i see these things and just wonder....
back in the faithful days i thought Fusion were alright, i mean they do great things for young people, running festivals and the like but lets face it, they pretty exclusive in their ways as much as they think they aren't.
i had a friend that was doing work experience with Fusion in hornsby and as part of that she worked at the cafe some afternoons. it was all good until after she had finished and they found out she was gay. then they had the opinion that because she was gay she probably shouldn't have been in the cafe with the 'youth'. now that's just fucked up. just because someone is gay doesn't mean they are going to corrupt anyone, or that they have some sort of negative effect on things.
i could go on but i don't think most of you would really value my opinion that much... i mean i'm a dirty homosexual after all.

not happy....

no one warned me that there's NO alcohol in poatina!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if i had knwon i would have smuggled some down with me.... i'll have to try and get some in Launceston.... not that i'm some sort of alcoholic... but it's just not normal for a place to have an alcohol ban.... i mean, you've seen it on the simpsons - it's just all gets crazy....
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

kaia ran over my foot

enough said....

grrrrrrrrrrr

Commonwealth Bank Bastards

I found this outside the Commonwealth Bank this morning. Nice stencil, good cause.

pain.extreme pain.

i have really bad cramps. i never get cramps so i'm thinking these aren't ordinary time of the month cramps. i went down the street to the chemist in agony to get some naprogesic. on the way back i thought i was going to vomit. like seriously vomit up everything, organs, food, the whole deal. i thought i'd definately have to throw out my clothes, that i'd be found clutching my stomach, feotal position, on the ground in a pool of vomit. lucky for me, and the people on the street i held out until i got home. i thought i'd feel better after i threw up but i don't. i feel like someone is jumping around in my stomach, playing squash or tennis or something. i can hear churning. bubbling. i feel like someone has a sword through my ribbs. it's only 6pm but i think i'm going to bed. it's just too intense. bed, with a bucket by my side. charming. i think it's time to see a doctor.

speechless

i have nearly completly lost my voice. i had forgotten about it because no one else has been home to talk to so when i went to the bakery this morning i was fairly confident that i would be able to ask for a multigrain cob. instead of 'multigrain cob' i mad a few whispers and squeaks. the lady in the shop said 'excuse me?' and i managed to say 'cob' in my loudest whisper, and then motion to the grained ones.. the lady laughed at me. gave me the cob, and laughed some more. how rude.
i need to do some grocery shopping. i think i'll walk, it's not far at all and if i catch the bus i will have to speak. i don't think i'll have to speak at bi-lo.... all these things to think about... i don't think i'd enjoy being mute forever. although it's sort of nice in a way. i feel like i'm in my own little world.

phone bill

i checked my phone bill online today.

$101.87.

i had guessed it would be $120.
i'm still pretty annoyed with myself though.

girls

cuz and i decided yesterday that maybe it would be good if he was gay and i was straight because then we both wouldn't have to deal with girls.
the only problem would be (well one of the problems) that we'd still have to deal with everyday friends who are girls who are sometimes just as troublesome as other girls. (relationship and ex-relationship girls)
maybe its just not girls.... i just can't deal with people in general right now.
it's all very frustrating.

meh

finding somwhere to move to is hard...
BAH!
i've created a marketing strategy for myself though, so i'm about to go see if i can sell myself on beaumont st...

tv

my tv is broken. it's dead. bye bye.
i was thinking about life with no tv and thought it would be ok for a while, enterprise has finished for the year so there's nothing else i really watch...but then i thought about my vcr.....whats the point of a vcr without a tv.
i can't afford to buy a new one so i guess i'll just have to live without it.
shame, i liked that tv, i've had it for quite some time now.

woot

i have 5c until tomorrow.

thumb

my thumb is hurting.
i had a good printmaking night tonight. we etched into the hardground of our copperplates and put them in the acid. we also printed from our drypoint plates. my crazy papadum rabbit looks quite sinister. probably because of the big gun image in the background.
ryan and i are not sure what to do tonight. we might drink some wine, but it feels pretty sad with just the two of us.
we just made an executive decision to open the aldi chicken chips.
amy thinks it's wrong to eat things that even taste like meat, but real chicken doesn't taste like chicken chips anyway so i think it's ok.

aarrrrrgggghhhh

This is an incredibly odd week.
My body seems detatched from my mind.

in a sea of music and people
i can't see anything else.

stuffing around

there's something wrong with abitofanish ...all my posts aren't showing up...

roads

tonight we got a lift home and got held up near the mt white turnoff for about 40mins. the big electronic road signs said that there had been a breakdown on the freeway - which doesn't really give since if it was only one broken down car there wouldn't be 40mins of backed up traffic. it was probably just some sort of roadworker skills test to see how much backed up traffic they could create.

dip

just had some corn chips and dip. the chips ran out before the dip was empty, i hate when that happens.

bloody hell crap

bills

three bills in three days - the system is shite.

comments

i find it funny that people can't take ten seconds to comment. but i guess perhaps i'm not posting comment worthy stuff. i know some of you comment all the time and that's really tops...... but other people just can't be bothered.
maybe people are scared to comment. maybe they think i'll track them down and kill them......

don't worry, i would never do that..

grr

the mt manual isn't very helpful.

soup diet

i love soup, but this is just crazy. i want a nice kumera soup or some four bean soup with paprika lavash croutons.
......i could really go some vege and chickpea patties........ or even just some stir fried tofu...
and fake juice....i miss fake juice...
mmmn lemonade.....
nuts, i could really go for some nuts right now.....some nice macadamia's or a chilli nut mix....

anything but this silly soup

net

only 1hr 30mins of internet left .

it's very sad.

grr

bugger bugger bugger bugger bugger bugger bugger

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

bastard

what the hell is wrong with the june/may achive.........

bastard......

birthday

kaia is getting a birthday present from mum and dad.
maybe they've forgotten about me?

sick today

feeling quite sick today. it started last night and won't go away. i hardly had any sleep.

dream

i had a dream last night that i went to the station (in hornsby) and i wanted to know when the trains came so i went up to a little coffee place to ask. but when i got there em g was working there, so i tried to avoid getting served by her but it just got too hard and then she said 'erin, did you want a coffee?' and i said 'no, i am going to catch a train' and then i walked away. it's so evil. i want to forget about her, well actually she wants to forget about me - i have no issues with her....anyway i just want some closure....but as long as she doesn't give me closure she'll keep popping up in my dreams and saying stupid things to me. but she won't give me closure because she just doesn't care anymore. our friendship was just based on the fact that making me happy made her feel better about herself...... how shallow is that. and how much did she lie at the time when i actually thought she gave a shit about me? it's all really fucked and i should get over it but frankly it just hurts. it's like if someone was feeling low so they adopted a kid and it made them feel better so they just left the kid on the side of the road to get run over. the kid's feeling didn't matter because the person that had adopted them was happy now.

don't know

i don't know what i'm doing wrong with this diet/exercise crap. i'm not changing at all. all the pudge is still in the places i don't want it to be. people say 'but erin you don't have pudge' but they don't see it because it's in places that get covered up by clothes. like my stomach and hips and legs. people don't see the little annoying pudgness that i see. so anyway i've been exercising lots and cutting out most carbs and trying to eat healthy.... but no. nothing is happening. someone in this world doesn't want me to be able to get rid of pudge. i hate that person.

tafe

tafe won't give me a concession card because i don't study enough hours.
centrelink won't give me a concession card because i am not 'looking for work' and study too many hours.

the system is shite.

my dodgy unemployment concession card from the nice centerlink man runs out in three days.

i'm buggered.

cold again

it's cold again today and i have to go to tafe. it's not too bad after having five days off and having done pretty much jack all in that time.
i haven't heard from either of the jobs so i doubt i ever will. i'm destined to be a poor student forever. well at least for another 4 1/2 years. then i won't even be a student, just poor.
$7 until friday.
maybe i'll save it all up and go crazy on thursday and buy some indian or something.
$7 doesn't get you into the movies like it used too. well, it used to get you into to hornsby odeon. i think the GU and hoyts were about $7.50.

computer

the computer is being a bastard.
every time i change users it disconnects the net,
every time i send an email it disconnects the net,
every time it checks for new mail it disconnects the net.
it's slow.
it doesn't seem to have viruses.
it's annoying.

oh crap

oh crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap......dammit.
i was meant to ring beth.
thank god for sms.