this afternoon i am meeting up with someone i have been 'seeing' in a 'semi relationship but not' sort of way. it's been going on for just over two months.
from the beginning she has said she didn't want any sort of committed thing and what we do in our own time is our own business. but lately other people and i have noticed that it seems like these rules don't really apply and if i spend time with other people (girls) she gets annoyed. i don't feel secure enough in what we have to completely dismiss other attractions i might have but i feel like i'm doing something wrong - eventhough i've been told over and over that it's not a relationship and we are not 'together'.
so why do i feel so bad about having to talk to her this afternoon about not seeing her anymore in that 'non relationship' context and just wanting a friendship. i guess it's because i'm human and have emotions, feelings and all that sort of stuff that gets in the way of being a complete asshole. but keeping that in mind it still doesn't help me with my dilema.
i think that breaking up with someone you aren't actually with - in the traditional sense - is somewhat harder to do then breaking up with someone you are with. at least then you know where you stand.