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My bed was so nice and cosy this morning i didn't make it out in time to get to tafe. My alarm went off at 7:50am but i kept pressing the snooze button and then eventually just turned it off completely. Between that time and when i woke up an hour later i had a strange dream where i had to go to central train station - which looked more like the airport then the station. I had to go because dad was getting a train to somewhere and well...i don't know exactly why i had to meet him there but i did. It was early too, around 8am. So i get there and meet him and then Nana is there too. We wander around for a while and then i ask dad what time his train is and he says '2pm'. Now i'm thinking to myself, why the hell did we have to be there at 8am if the train is at 2pm? Then suddenly i'vegone from being with my dad and nana to being in a shoe store with a version of a girl from tafe, tania, who is looking for shoes in a large size but is having trouble finding them. At this stage i hear cuz's voice and i open my eyes and he is standing at the door. he said 'are you going to tafe? it's 9am' and i said '...umm...i don't know if i have class or not' so he left and i snuggled back into bed for a while. I was worred for a while that i might have had an assessment at 9am but i smsed someone from class and she said it wasn't on the assessment calendar and she wasn't going, so i have decided not to go. Even if i left now i'd be an hour late....
On a completely different topic...I've been spending a far amont of time with a girl during the last few months. It's been nice most of the time but sometimes we both need space and then it's kind of shit for a few days. In the begining the days when we had space weren't as bad, but they have progressively gotten worse. There seems to be certain rules in the relationship (not that we are calling it one) that apply to me and not her, and she says she feels one way about something but acts on it differently. The last couple of days have been 'space' days, and i have enforced these days, two weeks ago i had a 'space' week which was the longest 'space' we'd had. I guess I've been starting to wonder whether it would be better just to be friends with her and not have to worry about rules, moods, and 'space'. I was going to talk to her about it last night. She had come to pick up some of her cds and to use my computer. That was all fine. She came in here and went online and i feel asleep in the loungeroom. about one or two hours later she came into the loungeroom and there was general chitter chatter between her, myself and one of my housemates. Then, all of a sudden, she gets up, puts her shoes on, grabs her stuff and leaves........ without saying anything. Usually if she was annoyed with me she would at least say goodbye to my housemates.....but nothing..... I don't understand women. Sometimes they are great but most of time they hurt my head.