abitofanish

my sister

I am going to be seeing kaia in two weeks and a bit. I'm very exctited about it...i haven't seen her in ages and i know that i probably spent the same time away from her last year but it feels different when she's so far away.... Tasmania doesn't even seem like part of Australia..... It might even float away.. i hope not. Also, now that she is engaged she seems a bit further away... and it means she'll be living with the Markster and won't be at home in Hornsby when i'm there.
Kaia and i used to have a pretty crappy realationship, as sister sometimes do. I remember us stabbing eachother with our finger nails and having fights about sharing a bedroom. Back in those days i would have to watch The Panel with no sound and then listen to my walkman where it was broadcast on triple j or some such radio station.
When i started to hang around with 'her' friends she got annoyed, very annoyed. Which is probably one of the reason i left st pete's to go to st john's - extra amusing because she eventually ended up at st john's and now is friends with all the people i used to be friends with and don't really see anymore.....maybe it's the gay thing...i don't know, that church was always a bit clicky, but i think they all are.
Kaia was the first family member i came out to. i remember that night... Katherine was over and so was Alyssa. I walked Ki up the road saying i needed to talk to her, i don't know what i actually said or she said but she gave me a hug and everything was dandy.
It's sort of strange because eventhough we spent so long fighting as kids we are quite close now. I used to think that siblings that got along well were sort of freaky, but i think some people just have a better start. All those years sharing a room was definately not a good start.
I still have a few of the letter's she wrote me over the years...some are lovely and some are sort of aggressive 'get out of my quad' stuff....which is a bit funny now.
I regret that we weren't able to have a good relationship earlier, when we were living closer to eachother. It would be great to go have coffee with her and chat about stuff on a regular basis.
I really miss my big sister.