monday.....we....oh that's it, we went into hornsby for a bit and managed to bump into a whole bunch of people. we met jana for lunch which was nice and then we saw kelly and khori. we hung around the shops for a bit and then natalie went home and i loitered around until 6:30 when i met up with kay who took me to Fernwood. it's a very nice gym and i managed to keep up eventhough i hadn't been gyming in about a year.
today natalie and i went into the city. we ate a lot of yummy food, visited niki, and i bought a jacket (after a very long search.....) we walked from pitt st mall up to darlinghurst and looked at a lot of nice clothes we (well i) will never be able to afford. shopping is really depressing when you're poor. it's like being vegan and visiting a chocolate factory.
money isn't everything but having nice things makes you feel special. and without money you can't buy nice things and therefore you don't feel special. i guess feeling special isn't everything but when you come to terms with the fact that the world is not a very nice place you need something to cheer you up, i mean friends can't be there all the time but a nice pair of pants or a new cd can be.
i try not to get caught up in this material world but it's very hard. i am a material girl, even if i don't want to be.
I think possessions are great. So long as they don't break all the time and need repairing. And so long as I don't get to lustful about electronic gadgets or my sexy-as-hell wardrobe. I have to be careful, but I like things. I spent some several months of last year with pretty much nothing at all. Everything I did have got broken or stolen or eaten or sandy, so I stopped having things and just kind of tried to give it all to the family I was with. And it wasn't very hard, but it wasn't very nice either. Living with a lovely family who didn't have very much but really cherished the things they did have, made me start to enjoy more the things *I* have.
Hurray for poverty that all the glorious ways it can enlighten us westerners and make our lives better.
Posted by: Ryan at July 4, 2003 10:08 PM